What I really want to say about the hard parts of creativity

It’s easy to think that the hard part is gearing up to start, but what I really wanna say is that the hard part is the time it takes once you get going. 

The hard part is showing up in the middle. When no one is listening, when the gleam of the start has worn off. When it’s just about doing the work. 

The hard part is when you have an “oh, maybe this is it!” high and then the “nope, that wasn’t it” low. 

The hard part is that you have to keep going after that. 

The hard part is that the change is so small and incremental that it doesn’t feel like a change at all. It just keeps feeling like who you are and what you do. That you don’t realize what’s happened until you look back at the before pictures and realize, oh man. I have been getting my shit done. 

The hard part is knowing when it’s time to hustle harder and when it’s time to pull back and re-evaluate.

And the hard part is that it’s all a grand experiment, and no one is going to teach you that kind of knowing, not in an e-course, not in the latest and greatest internet commerce tool, not in a webinar, not in an affirmation card.

The hard part is that you won’t get to the after unless you’re willing to work through the muck of the during. 

And that’s not sexy. It’s ugly-cry hard. It’s going outside to exercise even though you don’t feel like it hard. It’s wake up in the morning and start writing, even if you aren’t sure what to say beyond “What I really wanna say…” hard. 

And what I really wanna say is that the hard part is how it happens. 

But we all shy away from the hard part. 

Because the internet makes it look easy. Because everyone who’s already gotten through their first hard part and moved on to a different hard part makes it look seamless and lovely. 

What I really wanna say is that the key is falling in love with the hard part. Because you’re always going to be in some version of it. 

Yes, even when things are fun and easy and in flow, there’s still the hard part. There’s still the fear. And the discomfort. And the uncertainty of what if I can’t do this. 

And the hard part is about taking a breath and doing it anyway.