friday's confession

I'm feeling uninspired.

Not in my life, not in my love or friendship, but I'm having a hard time this week taking that good stuff, that energy and turning it into good writing.

I think it all comes down to balance. Last year, from September through December, I was constantly going 150 mph at work. And, bottom line: I didn't feel like I had a choice. I didn't see any way I could delegate more, there was nothing else that I could let slide. So, I just put my head down and powered through.

I made a choice to get the work done. In making that choice, everything else in my life suffered: I got sick multiple times. I missed Tim. I missed my friends and family. And I missed myself. There was no balance, but I knew it was a choice. And that it was temporary.

Now that the work craziness is over, I'm in a different situation. I have officially given notice at my job: my last day will be February 27! I have started to actually make some real movement on some things I started thinking really seriously about almost a year ago. But, I still need to find my balance.


Throughout December, I kept thinking, "I need more balance. I don't have enough." But, what I've realized is that, with balance, there's no such thing as either too much or not enough. It's just that you've got it or you don't. And right now, I don't.

But, I'm confident that I'm on my way to finding it. And, trust me, I'll keep you posted on my progress!

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