friday's confession: I can't do it all

That's right: I can't do it all.

{Deep breath}

I can't do it all...and that's okay.

See, I've been feeling all this pressure lately. My etsy shop is up, which is awesome! But now I need to balance packaging orders (I made a sale to a stranger last week! woot!), producing new art, teaching myself photoshop, working on prints (which paper is best? what size? do I need mats? Aah!) with my life. Cause life doesn't stop. It just keeps on rollin' despite your new endeavors.

In addition, I've been taking Kelly Rae Robert's amazing (seriously folks, it's amazing!) e-course and have realized all the marketing type things that I need to get going for myself: a newsletter, new website, facebook fan page...and so much more!

I know I don't have to do everything right away all at once. I know that doing everything all at once is an impossibility. But these are all things I WANT to do. I want to grow my business. I want to get myself well-situated for success. I want to be able to do this full-time. That's my ultimate long-term goal.

This is no secret to any of you.

Now, in the midst of all of this (plus the life-juggling part), I committed to doing another Waves to Wine charity bike ride in September. Have y'all seen a calendar lately? Cause let me tell you: September is only 3 months away.

3 months. 150 miles.

But hold on a second, life. I barely have time to clean my house. When am I going to find the time to actually train for this (pretty challenging) bike ride?

I realized that I wasn't. I wasn't going to find the time. Something else would have to give. And I started thinking about my priorities. What I felt like my focus really needed to be on, where I really wanted to put my energy.

Side note: I have a very hard time letting go of obligations, but sometimes I have to say no, or back out, or just not do things. But if I've committed to something, it is like pulling teeth to get me to back out. I fight it. Hard. 

And so I backed out. I felt horrible doing it, but the more I thought about it, I realized: I don't really have much choice. And as I develop this part of my life, as I really put my focus toward being an artist full-time, I'm going to have to make these hard choices. I'm going to have to put other things aside, despite how important they may be to me. I am going to have to make concessions. And I'm going to have to be okay with that.

I'm thinking that it's going to get easier over time. I'm already starting to feel more okay with this decision.