no business school
A little over a year ago, I made the decision to switch paths completely for myself and not go to business school. While an MBA would have been the smart, sensible thing to do, I knew that it wasn't what I wanted for myself. I knew that I wanted a change. I wanted to be able to move into a new career, something I waspassionate about and inspired by. Business school seemed like a good, sensible choice. I would make a change and new doors of opportunity would be opened for me. BUT, the more I considered life after business school, the more anxious I got about going. I realized that while two years of business school would get me out of my current situation, it was not my long-term solution. I didn't want to go into the business world. I didn't want to work in management for the rest of my life.
And so, I decided not to go to business school. I actually decided not to even apply since I knew it wasn’t for me. Not applying was tough. So many people said to me, “Why don’t you just apply and see what happens. Maybe you’ll get into a really good school.” I had to stand up for myself and know that not getting into a good school wasn’t my concern. Not getting accepted anywhere wasn’t my concern. The truth was that I didn’t want that life for myself.
Getting into a good school would have only made not going even harder.
Telling my family that I wasn’t going to business school was the hardest part. But, once I made the decision and started vocalizing it, I was overwhelmed at how much pressure I had been carrying around without even realizing it. I felt so relived and what I had decided. I started sleeping through the night and stopped having anxiety dreams. All of this taught me that only I truly know what’s best for me and that I have to listen to myself and trust that voice.