wednesday's inspiration

This moment

I am at a place right now where I am making all kinds of plans for my future. Travel, housing, job training -- it's all about what happens next. I know that I'm leaving my job and apartment at the end of the month. I know that I'll be traveling for the following three months. I know that when I come back, there will be all sorts of exciting opportunities for me to explore. All of this makes me happy.

But, more important than all of that is the fact that I'm happy now, and I think this is important. I know I'm moving toward something, but I know that I don't have to wait for all that stuff to happen. I don't have to wait for things or people or experiences to come into my life to bring me happiness. I know that it's up to me to do that for myself.

I do understand that the expectation of all these things is exciting, thrilling even. But, it's also incredibly scary at the same time. And exhilarating. But scary and exhilarating don't bring about happy. They might bring about adrenaline, and trust in oneself, and faith. But happy is something else. Contentment is something else.

My goal for my life is to be happy, to live happy, no matter what my circumstances are, no matter what is going on around me. That doesn't mean that I'm giving up control of my life. On the contrary, I'm working really hard to build a life that will help me find joy. I'm demanding more from my life, because I know that happiness is attainable -- secure happiness, a life beyond apathy and indifference. No more "well, it's not that bad." That's not good enough for me.

And now I ask you: what do you do to make sure that you're happy today? Right now, what in your life makes you happy?  Take that -- your happy stuff, the happy makers of your life -- and hold onto them. Look at what they bring you and build it up. Really acknowledge what it is and hold onto that, because that's where you find lasting happy.


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